-Clip Bleeding-

so she sings it like that..."Clip Bleeding, clip clip bleeding in love!" hahaha. at least naa tuno akong anak mo kanta. at almost 3 years old, she can already sing her favorite songs, and yeah, one of it is "Keep Bleeding" (Clip Bleeding)...

and she sounds so cute when she sings this. another of her favorite is "Alone" (by celine dion) oh diba, naay giliwatan...training lng cguro gmay kay murag baho man iyang tuno! hehehe...

love you bb shane!

-Hiding Inside Myself-

i was awake early morning today to catch up with some of my evaluations. Had to superduper be fast in order for me to finish before sunset and go to the office to dispo and upload it. But as I go through with my evaluations, I was struck with a sudden feeling of loneliness. I don't know if this is because of the pills am taking but there is a little pain in my heart for some reason. i don't know why. I listened to some music and bumped into the song "Hiding Inside Myself". Then I remembered someone sung this song to me beautifully. -sigh-
It was sung to me with sincerity and honesty, that I thought, the person really meant it. Or just a thought, am not sure.
Well, so much for this. Got to get back on track and avoid interruptions. Got to work!

Bills, Bills, Bills...

last saturday, valentine, i never get the chance to check our telephone and internet connection because we were so bussssssssy preparing for a somehow valentine family activity with Kenn's family in Villa Teresita. When Sunday came, my sister had to go to our house for an important matter and had to tell me that when she was calling me since Saturday, our phone was out of service. I wasn't aware. I then lifted the phone and checked it, and so i found out. NO DIAL TONE ang show sa telephone, thus NO INTERNET pd. kafaet...giputol among connection without giving us warning...grrrrrrrr...
when we paid our bill last February 2nd, we were not given a billing statement and we were told by the customer service to just pay 2k since our bill hasn't been adjusted yet. But it already reflected that we have to pay around 4k, because of our transfer payment and all the churvalu...
hay, it ended na we have to pay the remaining balance of 2k so the phone and internet can be reconnected, otherwise, if it's permanently disconnected then we will have to pay for the reconnection fee...grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
i was fuming with anger jud...ug sa pwerte jud nakong yawyaw...dah, manager lagi ang nag compute sa among bill ug dihadiha gi adjust among payment and it was reconnected not less than 2 hours after we paid the amount required. waaaaaaaaaaaaa...ang ending?
shortness.com sa budget...etsep!
anyway, so much for that...
am just sharing my experience with pldt my dsl!

A Second Life

it was past 12 midnight...

i was supposed to go to work...and then everything became blurry...i was hurting...
everybody seemed to be panicking..."Doc, 50/40!" one person shouted... I know I was conscious. Or maybe I am fighting to be so.

I tried to open my eyes, the lights from where I was seemed to be so bright that I can't almost see. Somebody was tapping me, "Ma'am ayaw ug katulog ma'am" tapping me harder. Someone was punching my diaphragm, "Ma'am??!" and I just tried to respond and opened my eyes...

December 3, 2008, I was fighting life over death...a fight I almost did not win...

"Day, ako c Doctora Roa ha..." a girl in an operating suit was talking to me. I know I was rushed to the hospital because I was hurting...that was the last thing I can fully remember. When I finally was able to have the courage to open my eyes and insisted to look around and see what was happening, I was in shock. There were a lot of nurses, assisting both of the Doctors who were checking on me. "Vitals?" somebody shouted, I couldn't see who she was. "Stable!" someone answered back.

I closed my eyes...I then remembered, I was in the Emergency room, hurting like hell. I saw Kenn's face, he was worried, the kind of face I have never seen in our entire lives together. "basin diay dili Doc..." I heard him being in denial upon hearing the doctor's diagnosis. "Ipa ultrasound lng sa nato Doc.." he insisted...and I can't seem to hear the rest of the conversations. I was hurting...so much that I couldn't bear it anymore.

"Tay, ngano daw dugay?" I asked him, trying to clarify why I wasn't still given any medication. He was just holding my hands. His were as cold as mine. I then know something serious was happening to me...I closed my eyes, and for a brief moment, I called Jesus' name...and I passed out...I don't know for how long...

"Day! Day! mata Day!, ayaw ug katulog Day, kadiyot nlng ni!" a pretty girl was instructing me not to close my eyes and feel asleep. She was also punching me in the diaphragm, harder than she could. All I could do everytime she punched me was open my eyes, but I couldn't say anything, even if it was painful. "Ako lng e capture imong ultrasound, then adto nata sa OR!"

"Ready na inyong kwarta Dong?" somebody asked Kenn, and all I could see on his face was fear and anger, all at the same time. He was pale. He was in panicked. He kept on going here and there and talking to someone in the cellphone. He was worried, worst, he didn't seem to know what to do. I pittied him. I couldn't help him. I was lying in bed, helpless as well.

"Ready na?!" the girl who introduced herself as Doctora Roa asked everyone in the Operating Room. "Yes Doc!" Almost everyone answered...

Somebody put something in my mouth and nose, "Day Oxygen lng na!" and I couldn't breathe...and I passed out again...

When I woke up, I couldn't speak. I couldn't almost see. Everything was blurry. I am dead...or I thought so...I then realized that I was just in the recovery room , that was around 7 in the morning. The next thing I know, I won the fight I had with DEATH. I was given a SECOND LIFE.


A lot of realizations happen with that incident. Our lives changed to something we didn't expect. I have discovered true friends in the event of being in a 50/50 stage. I have known heroes who would choose to help others than thinking of themselves first.

I THANK them from the bottom of my heart. (and you know who you are guys)

But most of all, I thank GOD for giving the chance to be with the ones I love again.

blogging

it's been a loooooooong while that i haven't blogged about anything. In fact, i quote one of my colleague telling me, "Shar, wla na lagi kay blog blog?" and I just can't find the right excuse in my mind. Well, primarily because we just had our internet connection back. We transferred to another house. Yes, you heard it. We transferred again, and hopefully, we won't have to transfer again someday soon. But if you come to think of it, 3 months have passed since I last blogged, I don't think I have given enough excuse to justify myself...

Yes, a lot of things happened in my life for the past months that I have not shared with you guys...but bottom line, am glad am still here...

Keep you posted...hopefully