KeEpiNg My SaNiTy

for the past few days, i have been struggling with stress and problems. although i tried not to let this show on my face each and everyday, it's hard to pretend that everything is okay. i have been in this situation before, and it's difficult to just smile, laugh with friends and enjoy the day when my mind is on something else. -sigh-
you might be thinking that this is some kind of a heart problem or anything to do with family. NO. In fact, i am very much thankful to have a husband that is so understanding and supportive of me. who is always ready to give way for my tantrums. lol
this is something within me. stress from keeping my sanity!
am not saying that i am insane or to that effect, lol. not literally. i am just going through things that sometimes, most of us consider difficult to handle.
so how am i keeping my sanity?
go figure. -sigh-

tHaNkS to D NeW MoDem

when we had our internet connection, we did not have that much of a wonderful experience. our internet was not connected right away, it was down for how many days after a couple of days it was connected, and then finally, after 48 years (am just exaggerating) of complaining to our provider's customer service, our modem was replaced.
From then on, i noticed that our internet connection was no longer intermittent (buyag lang!). Our connection is already good. Thanks to the New modem they provided us.
On the other hand, i haven't gotten any credit from the days I lost my internet (crap!). It's still not reflected on my bill. grrrrrrrrrrrrr... and when i called customer service (again), the rep told me that my credit was already approved. (yehey). I was so happy. at last, i can get even. but she said that it will be reflected on the next bill yet, and what was worst was that, the credit that was approved was only (brace your self!) P33.00! wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Ni hatag pa cla ug credit!

it's been a while

i have noticed that come this August, i was not writing as much as i was last month. i dunno if this is because i am busy with work and work, or if it is that i have lost the interest in writing and updating my blog site. anyway, from the last time i composed a topic to be posted here on my site, many things have happened. although none was that impacting, it still became part of my life.
On the lighter side, i could say that the OT free weekend gave me so much time to be with my family and to be with my self. am still enjoying what i am doing right now. i have a choice.
see yah next blog and am hoping to keep you posted as much as i can.
:-)

long weekend

it's another long weekend...yet i have to work...OT...OT...OT... and this is why they call me the OT Queen. anyway, i am not complaining, because aside from getting our site (Cebu site) to hit its goal, am also earning extra! (just enough to pay all my dues...hehehe)
anyway, i just thought of escaping from work and go somewhere else. but i doubt if that can be done as of this time. again, i have to set my priorities, and when you have responsibilities, you can't just leave them. -sigh-
am just hoping to have an ordinary weekend, spent with my extraordinary family. hehehe...

onion skin

i hate it when i cry because of feeling tensed and stressed. i hate it when i look so "iyakin" in the eyes of the many when in fact i know that this is my way of releasing the stress and finding the strength to face whatever i have to face. what do you think of this? all i know is that it's bad to start crying just to compose yourself but it's how i find the most comforting zone and after it am fine. -sigh-

jUst a BaD DaY

i had to go to work early yesterday because of a meeting i needed to attend. i used to come to work at around 11pm but yesterday, i had to cut my sleep short and had to ask my hubby to put my baby to sleep in order to attend the meeting. it's not that i am complaining, it's just that when you're used to doing things, it's somehow hard (can't find the best adjective) to overcome change. on the lighter side, that was just for our site's own good. (bawi lagi dayon). when i arrived at the office, i found out that i am the only one that can attend the meeting. my colleagues unfortunately can't attend for some important reasons. (so this was where the bad day started? dunno). but i wasn't bothered. it wasn't a big deal anyway. so after the meeting, i then rushed to the 12th floor to mingle with the rest of my colleagues. when i started doing evaluations, i found out that the tool we were using for evaluating TL's was down since Tuesday so my plan of doing TL evals was change. I then shifted to doing agent evals instead. At the middle of doing my 4th evaluation, i suddenly felt hurt on my left eye. my sight became blurry and i had to close my eyes to regain my vision. i was a bit scared. i had the same experience when i was still an agent but i remembered i didn't take any medicine. but last night was different. it was really hurting so i had to inform my supervisor to go to the clinic, and so i did. in fact one of my colleagues accompanied me. (thanks dudley!) the doctor said it's no big deal. i still have 20/20 vision, but it was really hurting. so i rested my eyes for a while. (wana signos na!) at around 2am, can't remember the exact time, my supervisor called all of us to go to her station to be instructed on how to pull up a framework for our TL Review. (they found a way on how to do a work around). So all of us gathered in her station and listened to her. (this was where the scariest thing happened that day, to those who were there, you know what i mean. unfortunately, can't put everything in detail here.) i was stunned and scared to death with what happened and so was every one. but again, no big deal. i had a lot of things to think about than what happened that time. and my colleagues were very supportive. in fact i caught one of my colleagues saying, "we don't have to put our teammate down just because of..." and i didn't hear the rest of the sentence anymore. what i was thankful for was i have teammates (whom i consider friends as well) that can stand for what is right. thanks everyone! (so that was the second sign that i really had a bad day) when i went home, since i can no longer bare the pain in my eyes, i called my hubby to fetch me and he said "yes i will go there now." so i rushed to the ground floor and waited, and waited, and waited. i wondered where he went. he was not there yet even if our house was just 5 minutes away from the office. so i called him again, and i found out that he fell asleep again. "what?" i thought so. if i didn't call and just waited there, i could have waited forever. GRRRRRRRRRRRR.... it's just a bad day! as what they always say, "when it rains, it pours!" wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... from the time i started my shift until i ended it, i had a terrible day. what about you? how was your day yesterday?

sUddEnLy

when i started blogging, i had the energy of a horse to update my blog site everyday. in fact, i signed up for my own internet access in the house to make sure that i am updated and connected everyday. but suddenly, i am tired. i dunno if i lost the motivation or if i ran out of topic to write on my blog. i just dunno. it has been how many days since i have not posted as much as i used to in my blog site. i am hoping to be able to update it soon. keep posted everyone.

diCkieS sUnGLassEs

since his old sunglasses was broken, he had been deciding to buy a new one but he can't find anything he likes, which would fall on his criteria -- nice, good quality and cheap. duh! you can never find some sunglasses of that kind for just 150-200 pesos. I doubt it.
I have been telling him to just buy something with real quality and don't mind the price, but he won't. he doesn't want to. i have been convincing him to buy, but he was hard headed.
so what i did was surprise him. when we bought some stuff for me after the recent pay day, i told him if he wanted to check out some sunglasses in the men's department. we have been doing that before but he always ends up not buying because he can't find anything that he likes. (which is cheap)
i told him to check out the Dickie's booth and try looking for sunglasses that he may like. well, fortunately, he liked one but again, he was hesitant to buy because of the price.
without second thoughts, i signaled the sales lady that i will get it and i announced it to him. he was shocked and even looked at me and said, "it's expensive mommy!" i ignored him and rushed to the counter and paid.
i know in his heart that he really liked it. and after paying, he hugged me and said, "thank you mommy. nice lagi to sya."
he deserve to get it. we love you tay.