of ReStDaYs and WeeKeNds

i just had a good night sleep...
i didn't almost realize that kenn already left for work last night and we (shane and I) were left with the TV playing Barney and Dora.
i woke up and realized that it was 1am and the TV was still on, while Shane was already asleep. Probably she woke me up like she usually does, to ask me to turn off the TV but I believe and am pretty sure that because I was so tired, i was not able to wake up. She might have figured it out after several times of waking me up and just put her self to sleep.
well, when i woke up at around 1am, i turned off the TV, kissed Shane on the forehead, and placed her in a comfortable position in bed...
then, i went back to sleep.
it was a nice feeling thinking that you can go to sleep as much as you want without thinking of anything to do.
it's mind resting...and it's re energizing me! :-)

thank God of ReSt Days & WeeKeNds

LoSiNg GrIp

its been a while since i was here...i miss this...sigh
was i too busy or was i just lazy to write anything? well, i think both...

i think i am loosing my grip on everything...and i meant everything...
i feel that i need time for my self and reorient things...you might be thinking that am in another "critical" situation again, but hey, not really.

there are just times in our lives that we wanted to break free...from anything. i don't want to imply that i am tired of the kind of life that i have but sometimes, i feel that everything has become a routine for me. and i don't want to loose such enthusiasm and energy that i have.

i feel like am choking at times, or maybe because i am taking everything seriously...one friend even told me, "loosen up gurl, you seemed just too tight these days!" and i just nodded and smiled. maybe because i know that it's true but i am just denying it.

i thought about it several times and i am afraid that i'll end up being laughed or misjudged that i am just good at the start. i don't want that. i want to have the same kind of stance until the end, but sometimes, you can't get away with the fact that you laid back and just want to sit there doing nothing.

i am struggling...yeah, you heard it. i am struggling to keep the same kind of attitude at work. the attitude that had earned me more compliments from co-workers, more trust from higher management and more praises for a job well done.

sigh

but on the other side, i thought that if i won't to give my self a break, i'll end up shattering my self, and the person that i have become.

(more coffee please...lol!)

FiNaLLy

Finally, we have our own QA room!
Since i3 was officially opened and the other department that used to occupy our room transferred there, we finally got our own QA room.
it's inspiring...char!

well, it's really nice to have something you can call your own...now, we can say that we have privacy...that we can at least do things we are prohibited to do when we joined the agents in the production floor...gud luck sa violators list!
now that we have our own room...mas grabe na ang krimen...hahahhahaaha....

hurray to the new QA room! the long wait is over...